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sunday song – I Wanna Get Better by Bleachers


I didn’t Know I was Broken Until I Wanted to Change

I Wanna Get Better


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This is Not Your Year by the Weepies – sunday song post

This has been a very sad weekend. I’m going to write about it this weekend. But for now here is This is Not Your Year by the Weepies.


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bringing back the Sunday song post – Blue Skies by Noah and the Whale

This song really speaks to my depression and I’ve been enjoying listening to it so I thought it would be a great first post to bring my Sunday songs back. Enjoy – Blue Skies by Noah and the Whale. 


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nobody’s got it all together (Jill Phillips) – sunday song

I discovered this song before Laureate. I was slowly dying and no one knew and I listened to this song obsessively as I did behavior after behavior. So what prompts me to choose it as my Sunday Song tonight? Well, I think it’s a good reminder that although on the surface it may appear like things are good and well for a person that doesn’t tell the whole story. “Nobod’sy got it all together” is the norm – not the other way around.


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sunday song – The Scientist covered by Glee

Well, I’ll admit it – I’m obsessed with Glee songs again. No shame. They make me happy. So this week Sunday song is of course taken from their wide repertoire (they recently celebrated their 500th song). I also have one more thing to add I maybe, sorta, a lot watch Glee because Darren Criss (Blaine) is pretty much amazing.

This song was sung towards the beginning of the season and several of the Glee characters were having some difficulty in their rocky love lives (effectively breaking up two of the most beloved couples) but forget about that and just listen. It’s pretty beautiful even if you aren’t a Glee fan or just look at Darren Criss. That’s okay too.


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songs and their role in eating disorders and recovery

Today is the first day of National Eating Disorder Awareness Week (NEDA Week) 2013. The Theme for this year is “Everybody Knows Somebody”. Eating disorders are widespread illnesses and can affect anyone regardless of age, race or gender. This week I am going to focus my blog on eating disorder awareness, what it is like to have an eating disorder and share some bits of my own journey. To learn more about eating disorder please visit the NEDA’s website

Music has been a huge influence in my journey to recovery. This is why I often choose a Sunday Song to showcase (go here to see a list of previous songs). While music can have a huge positive affect it can also cause be used to create motivation to stay sick or remain stuck in an eating disorder. There are many songs that ‘glorify’ eating disorders whether they mean to or not. On Youtube many, many eating disorder victims have put together videos that showcase their sickest pictures accompanied by songs about eating disorders. A common song that is often chosen is the song “Courage” by Superchick. I have no doubt that Superchick wrote this song to be encouraging to those who struggle but sadly it has become an anthem for those who are sick. One of the first steps I took in my recover was deleting many songs that I listened to in my sickest days. In their place I have found other songs I love to listen to instead. And this song is one of them:



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Daylight by Maroon 5 and Playing for Change

This week my Sunday Song is Daylight by Maroon 5 and Playing for Change. Playing for Change is a really neat organization that Maroon 5 teamed up with to produce this song. Here is what the organization Playing for Change is:

Playing for Change is a music project series which brings together musicians from around the world. All profits go to their non profit foundation which builds music schools for children around the world.

All PFC performers where recorded and filmed live outside and this musical journey takes us from the streets to the stage to the hearts of the people. Playing For Change is a movement uniting people everywhere through music.

Be sure to check out Playing for Change’s website.

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we love each other too much to let each other go – “to be with you”

Tonight was family Christmas on my mother’s side. Each year we celebrate by exchanging sock gifts for a person we have drawn the year before. We all come together open gifts, spend time together, eat cheese and veggie dips and soups for dinner. As a child these celebrations were magical times of gift opening and waiting in anticipation for my turn. We always went in order from youngest to oldest which meant that  I was always number four (the first girl). At that time Grandma filled our socks and we each opened our two presents from Grandma and Grandpa. Since we have started the name draw instead of Grandma and Grandpa filling each sock the person who drew our name does so.  This means that each year the presents are unique to that gift giver and it is (supposed to be) a surprise to who had us. I’m much older so I’m not breathless with anticipation to open my sock gifts but I do look forward to it eyeing my sock and trying to gauge who it’s from and what is in it. I like to watch the person who I had shopped for open their sock and discover what I found for them.

This year was a little different. Our gathering was smaller than normal as my family more than twenty-five is scattered far and wide but we still held our sock exchange, laughed at the little girls, admired baby Kinely who is less than a week old and enjoyed each other’s company. I was also blessed to have my Grandmom (my father’s mother) here from Denver. She joined our gathering and I loved knowing that many of the people I loved were in the same room or represented by the socks they had sent.

One thing that has become apparent to me this year as the family has continued to scatter is that it takes work to be a family. Especially, an extended family. It takes dedication. Love, yes but also dedication, a dash of stubbornness and a huge amount of commitment. When you live far from someone you love it is easy to let a relationship go. I’ve watched my father work to continue his relationship with my Grandmom, calling every night even when they may not have lots to talk about. It works. They are close and they have a bond. Without those phone calls and the decision to communicate the relationship could easily have been lost. And now for the first time as my mother’s side of the family begins to truly scatter it marks a change and it requires something new from all of us. A new form of loyalty, love and effort. But I have no doubt we have it in us. We love each other too much to let each other go.

And now….my normal Sunday song. This songs means a lot to me this year as I am home for the first time in four years and my grandmother from Denver who I have not seen in years joins us for Christmas. It is called “To Be With You”.

We come in from our travels
Lay our gifts beneath the tree
my mothers in the kitchen
the parade is on tv
my father’s with his father
their setting out some toys
the kids all want the train he’s had
since he was a boy

to be with you
to be with you
i love this time of year
it always brings me here
to be with you

I fall in with my sisters
just like when we were young
my grandma holds the baby
she rocks and softly hums
we gather round the table
we close our eyes and sing
Praise God from whom all blessings flow

to be with you
to be with you
i love this time of year
it always brings me here
to be with you

Praise God from whom all blessings flow

We set our milk and cookies
the kids are quick to bed
they know St. Nick is coming
and nothing need be said
we gather by the fire
reminiscing by it’s light
the kids will be up early
but it’s hard to say goodnight

to be with you
to be with you
i love this time of year
it always brings me here
to be with you



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sunday song – “Rest – the Song of the Innkeeper”

I haven’t done a Sunday Song in several weeks. This week has been long (as you can probably tell from my posts). My favorite Christmas song this year is a song called Rest by Jason Gray. It is written from the perspective of the inn keeper who turned away Mary and Joseph all because he was tired and he needed rest. In the song he sings that he is waiting for the Messiah to come and he cannot wait until the day he does so he no longer has to lead the hard life he does not knowing that in the stable next door Jesus is being born. Today I can relate to the innkeeper needing rest. I feel the same way. And so I have chosen this song.

I found them standing in my door
In the clumsy silence of the poor
I’ve got no time for precious things
But at least they won’t be wandering
If they’re sleeping on my stable floor

There were no rooms to rent tonight
The only empty bed is mine
‘Cause I’m overbooked and overrun
With so many things that must be done
Until I’m numb and running blind

I need rest, I need rest
Lost inside a forest of a million trees
Trying to find my way back to me
I need rest

As a boy I heard the old men sing
About a Kingdom and a coming King
But keeping books and changing beds
Put a different song inside my head
And the melody is deafening

I need rest, I need rest
Like a drowning man in the open sea
I need somebody to rescue me
I need rest

To Rome we’re only names and numbers
Not souls in search of signs and wonders
But we’re waiting for the day of our salvation
The messiah who will be our liberation
We’re waiting, I’m waiting

I need rest, I need rest
Oh come oh come Emmanuel
With a sword deliver Israel
I need rest

Tonight I can’t get any sleep
With those shepherds shouting in the streets
A star is shining much too bright
Somewhere I hear a baby cry
And all I want is a little peace

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some nights by Glee (and yes they do have an eating disorder storyline)

It’s almost time to start posting Christmas songs! But I’ll leave that for next week once December arrives. This week I’ll share my favorite song Glee has covered this season. I love this song anyways (and I still love the original by FUN more) but this is pretty amazing. Plus can I just say that I love that the male leads are so good this year?

Oh and before someone says this Glee does have an eating disorder storyline. I do NOT like this for several reasons and I will be blogging about it in the future but for today I’m just enjoying their music.


p.s. it also cuts off at the end which drives me crazy!

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