Today is the final day of National Eating Disorder Awareness Week (NEDA Week) 2013. The Theme for this year is “Everybody Knows Somebody”. Eating disorders are widespread illnesses and can affect anyone regardless of age, race or gender. This week I am going to focus my blog on eating disorder awareness, what it is like to have an eating disorder and share some bits of my own journey. To learn more about eating disorder please visit the NEDA’s website.
“It’s not your fault you developed an eating disorder or depression or an addiction or whatever else is trying to steal your life away, but it is your responsibility to save yourself. And you can.” – Josie Tuttle
Today bring NEDA week to a close. It doen’t mean awareness should stop but it does mean for this year the one week that is dedicated to awareness is done. I choose tonight to write about something that I have come to firmly believe makes the difference in whether one recovers or not. Now I really don’t know anything. I’ll tell you that upfront. I haven’t been fighting back that long (only two years), I’m not a clinician or an expert. I’m not recovered however I do believe that there is one thing that decides whether you will or won’t recover and that is making the conscious choice to recover.
I’m not saying you wake up one day and decide ‘hey I’m going to recover’ and then magically you are healed. I am saying that if you do not make the decision to seek out recovery with all of your heart and soul you will not recover. There is simply no way. The best treatment center in the world can’t make you recover. Your parent’s can’t make you recover. Your husband cannot. Your pet cannot. Medication can not. Only you can choose recovery.
It sounds harsh maybe. And I’m not saying you chose your disorder. Far from it. But I am saying that once you learn the skills you must make that decision to seek out recovery. It doesn’t mean you won’t lapse or relapse. It doen’t mean you will be perfect. It does mean however that you are trying your damnest to get to where you want to go and you know that the only way to get there is to keep holding onto to that choice you made at that point in your life when you had hope. And that choice was to seek out recovery and to one day be recovered.
I know not everyone agrees with me. But this is my belief and as NEDA week wraps up I thought it was appropriate to share it with you.
Thank you all for spreading awareness and reading my blog. I will continue blogging about the challenges and triumphs in recover along with mood lifters, stories from my life and endless tales of my service dog. I hope you will choose to follow my blog and join me on my journey as I live into recovery.