I’ve had a really nice day. I was able to enjoy all aspects of the day including Thanksgiving lunch and then the leftovers for dinner. It was a relaxed day and I enjoyed spending it with my parents, brother, grandparents, aunts, uncles and cousins (and of course Ben). A week or so ago I would have really struggled with feeling full and worrying about calories and gaining weight but I was able to put that out of my mind. I was reminded out of the blue as I was getting ready that something my dietician said to me at CFC. CFC subscribes to the philosophy of intuitive eating. Part of this philosophy is that your daily food intake may be more or less on somedays. My dietitian told me that on days such as Thanksgiving you may be more full than normal and that is okay. I’m not referring to overeating but simply feeling more full than you might on a regular day. Holidays don’t happen everyday and neither does the type of food one eats on those types of days. And if you eat a little more than normal it’s okay and weight gain will not magically occur. Remembering this was quite frankly a God-send and got me through dinner and the rest of the day.
I am thankful for many things but most of all for being in the best place in recovery I have been in four years. I am not in between hospital stays nor am I in treatment. I am not miserable and trapped in a life full of abuse and isolation. My life may not be exactly what I wish it was but I am content. I am loved. I am so blessed to have Benjamin lying by my side and to stay with me all day allowing me to even more fully enjoy my day by reducing anxiety. I was glad to take a day off from thinking about the normal day to day aspects of living in recovery and the challenges it brings and I am so glad that I was able to do so.
This has been a short blog but it’s all I have to say tonight. I hope you enjoyed your day however you spent it and if you suffer with an eating disorder you can remember it’s one day, one meal and tomorrow the sun will rise.